That inexplicable feeling of utter weightlessness and suspension of all faculties when an unexpected encounter happens. Never mind that there is no relationship or even friendship to speak of.
That feeling that breathing has suddenly become a conscious activity, and the flutters that erupt in the chest. Never mind that we haven't spoken in months.
The split second of utter certainty that someone is meant for you, no matter what their/your relationship status happens to be - before the brain kicks in and tells you to stop being a fool.
The power of someone to unsettle you so much that three days later, he is still all you can think about. Never mind that logic is one of your strongest points.
This is not love. It is not infatuation. It is not attraction. It is not chemistry. Whenever I try and get this boy out of my system, he comes flooding into my life in the most unexpected ways. I haven't spoken to him as a friend in over a year. We admitted to having feelings for each other, and decided that they couldn't be acted upon. I imagine we are both doing the right thing by backing away.
Only thing is, I wonder if the expression on my face mirrors his when we see each other unexpectedly - the shock, the widened eyes, the sudden tenseness of all limbs. The conscious effort not to look like a gaping fool and attempt to utter a few words in English that are not drawn completely from random.
Who knew saying 'hi' could be so difficult?
5 comments:
hehehe wow.. clearly we have SOOO MUCH to catch up on. if something got you to blog after so long, its news, i presume :D
in other news, im back from a week long holiday out of town, only to leave for the weekend again. back monday. please, lets, just, meet.
yes we do! hehehe.. I am hoping to be free for an evening before I hit 30. *crosses fingers* Also, tried messaging you on Facebook only to find you have vanished - AGAIN. lol. Do you have Whatsapp?
Nope I don't have whatsapp, though with so many people asking me these days, I'm considering getting on.
I got back in town yesterday, fully intending to finally settle back into a normal routine, but I'm off to delhi on work again today :( So closer tot he end of this week? Seriously, lets just block a date and make it happen..
shadi kar ley beta kyun bachey bigad rahi hai padi huyi
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